I posted this in the replies to my blog entry but figure it needs its own separate post.

"oh dear me. sounds like i owe both soah and his family some pretty big apologies for jumping the gun. i screwed up pretty big time with what i posted and i'm deeply sorry. rest assured i feel like quite an idiot now and should never have jumped to conclusions. i have no excuse for my actions and accusations. i prob no longer deserve simon's friendship."

so yeah, it turned out to be a pretty serious lapse of judgment in not trusting someone whos been nothing but a completely reliable friend in all the time i've known him, and the first time ive ever made a screwup of such magnitude with some pretty obviously adverse consequences for simon and for his family to read some of the awful false accusations and insults i wrote about him due to my error. i cannot apologise enough and fully understand if simon will never speak to me again, but if he does let me offer virtually unlimited poker coaching in an attempt to make it up.


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this year playing NLH online cashgames:

on my home setup in London with 30"+20" monitors, aeron chair and nice desk
i've played 121k hands and am +$230k

on my laptop (17" 1920x1200 prolly the best laptop u can get for poker, nothing really wrong with it)
i've played 25k hands and am -$75k

I always felt I somehow played a fair bit worse on laptop and made more bad spewy plays because the conditions were kinda uncomfortable compared to what I'm used to so I was somehow playing more tilted and making less folds because i knew id have a shorter amount of time before id get too physically uncomfortable sitting with laptop in a somehow awkward position to continue playing, so i played a faster riskier spewier style to try and win lots before i have to take a break, or something completely braindead like that. I don't know to what extent variance and randomness is clouding these results over small samples in high-variance games, but if I already suspected a difference in my play on laptop and proper setup without ever having looked at results on both separately before and then I see something like this I can probably assume conditions make a pretty huge difference for me. Crazy stuff, I wish I realised sooner lol..!

somehow I need to get better at playing tiltfree on laptop.... tips???!??


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So my time in Manchester has come to an end. I'm pretty glad I came, I had a pretty good time and it was a good experience to get in some more live mtt practice before vegas. Aside from my historic major weakness of lack of patience (which I think im getting much better at), I think my tournament game is pretty damn good now considering my relative lack of experience in them. One thing I need to work on though that I really am not confident in is my final table game and playing shorthanded with large blinds. I was never a sng player but plan to increase my experience in these situations by playing some step 6 wsop stars sats (which I also heard have pretty good value). I also got to know a bit more about the uk live pro scene and made a couple of useful contacts.

Online poker wise I learned quite a few things from Jamie by watching him play online 6max nlh, he is quite a beast of 6max nlh considering how little he's played. I think I've definitely taken my 6max nl game just for granted for a pretty long time since it's been my bread-and-butter for most of the time ive been playing fulltime. But in doing so I think I've developed some suboptimal repeated bad habits which are hard to fix when I'm playing lots of tables and just rely on my autopilot game too much. What jamie does is really good, strictly only 4 tables of 6max and this is something I hope to force myself to start doing a lot more.

Results wise I've been doing pretty poorly all year overall I think (don't have my year stats here since I'm on laptop in a pub while I wait for my flight home), probably in large part from too many tables, too much tiltspew, too little playing 24/7 to capitalise on sessions when im running good and playing my best, and instead being content with modest wins and taking a break. But also cause I feel I've been running pretty miserably. Obviously I've also won a major live donkament so I have no real reason to complain I'm up pretty big at 25/50nl this year, part from running hot and part from really focussing when I play up there cause I have real hunger to win there and it's still out of my comfort-zone. However I think im barely more than breakeven over a lot more hands of 5/10 10/20 due to lack of the afore mentioned things. Pretty inexcusable. In the last week im down a lot of money running like complete rubbish in some bigger prima games, which I'm not gonna go into too much cause I dont see point in whining a lot about bad results. It's really hard for anyone to be sympathetic to me because that just doesnt happen in poker especially not for someone whos up a lot lifetime, and it also gives people who dont like me (of which there must be many because im not generally a very nice person ) a reason to be happy that im losing and unhappy (unlike sympathy, schadenfreude is something that theres a LOT of in poker).

From now on I'm gonna post a lot more hands and discuss my big hands and day to day play in my blog hopefully almost daily, as well as take a more active role in teaching. To that effect I have an announcement that some of you may find interesting but I'll hold off until it's confirmed. I've always been reluctant to do this in the past because I don't wanna 'coach the fish' and 'give away my secrets' or whatever, but now that my ego is sufficiently beaten down I no longer feel thats an issue plus with so many players infinitely better than me like raptor blogging daily about their hands and giving away their thought process etc, as well as the wealth of extremely valuable nlh information already out there, I hardly think my adding to it is gonna hurt me as much as help me. I'm hoping I'll make less terrible spew tilt plays when I have to publically shame myself for them everytime i do.

Back to london soon, one last month left before the start of WSOP to prepare for the oncoming sickness. I'm going to have an insane amount of action invested in the series, both in myself and others, and I'm definitely going to either win or lose a massive amount of money over those 7 weeks of nonstop degeneracy, so I hope to get in the best mental shape I can possibly be in before it starts. A heater would be nice right about now one time lee!

that's all I care to write for now, gl folks


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